I've always been an optimist and a hopeless romantic, both which are enough of a pain on their own, combine them together and....... well, let's just say I can't let go when I know I should. But that's the really trick isn't it? Knowing when you should let go.
For example right now, being away from the one I love, it kills me a little bit more every single day, and every single logical bone in my body is screaming that I know it's the right time, but being a hopeless romantic my logical bones are far outnumbered by my hopeful ones. And every time I think cutting the ties would be the right thing to do I remember that when we're together, I'm happier then I've ever been in a very long time. And despite the pain I'm in right now, despite how hard it is, it's just so...... easy when we aren't several hundred miles apart.
But maybe I'm crazy holding onto this relationship like the band on the Titanic, maybe it would be better to abandon ship, but honestly? I'm a fighter, and true love however hard and difficult it may seem, well, that's something worth fighting for, and maybe, just maybe, I lost what I thought I had a long time ago, but like I said I just don't know. So until all hope seems lost, I guess I'll just keep surviving, keep fighting, and maybe just maybe avoid the iceberg, so to speak.
